It was Bergen's 7th birthday on the 10th of May. For the past year whenever anyone would ask me how old Bergen was I would say, he is 5. I would say that because I couldn't believe that he was 6, because if he was 6 then that meant that he would be turning 7 and there was no way that my little boy was going to be 7 already. He would quietly say mom I'm 6. I would shake my head in disbelief and say, oh your right, he is 6. It was the week of mother's day when I had my first little boy and it was the best mother's day present ever. I grew up with three younger brother's. It is important to state that they were younger because there was no protecting of the baby sister. I was very much the older nagging sister, expected to baby sit a pack of hooligan's who had no intent on listening to anything I had to say. One of there favorite thing's to do, of course, was to practice their karate moves on me, without actually touching me, therefore not getting into trouble when I would complain to our parents. Needless to say I wasn't quite so sure that I wanted to have little boys. When I was expecting Bergen I just knew it was a boy and when I was 4 months pregnant with him Darren and I were asked to portray Mary and Joseph in the Christmas pageant. It was such an amazing experience for me, playing Mary carrying Baby Jesus, just knowing that I was carrying a son as well. When I had Bergen I was surprised at the feeling's that I had for him. I didn't love him any less or any more that I did Noelle, but so very differently. He was my little man. I adored him in a way that I can't describe, that I still feel for him. He doesn't let me kiss him anymore and I can barely get a hug. I don't hear I love you as often as I used to, but when he is tucked up in bed and he asks he to lay with him for a while, I know that he needs and loves me. Even though he expresses it in a different way and needs me in a different way, he still needs me. I am so very greatful for the gift of Bergen. My life would not be the same without him. Happy birthday my little man!
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