Baby Hungry

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I know what you're thinking, How could you possibly be baby hungry when you just had a baby? All I can say is that I don't understand it either. Nya is still a little baby, not newborn, but I still get the sweet little old ladies and the cute toddlers (who are not much more than babies themselves) stopping to see her and just stare in awe over a baby, but to me each day that passes is another day she grows away from being my little baby. I know that this is part of life, that she is really God's child, that this is what is suppose to happen, but what do I do with the sadness? I have heard friends say that they just had a feeling of completion when they were done their families. I cannot stress enough how much I NEVER EVER want to be pregnant again, but I have an ache. My concern is what do I do with it if it doesn't pass, why do I have to get so sick when I am pregnant, will I ever get that finished feeling? I cannot have babies forever, but I just wish the longing would go.