This Baby!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


The Cutest 25 Cents I Ever Spent

Thursday, April 15, 2010

This is me trying to take a picture of Nya in the little green boots as she tries to take the camera from me
This is Nya having a tantrum and running away because I would not let her have the camera

When Noelle was a year old and starting to walk I wanted to get her some little shoes that were just for going outside to play, so I did not want to spend alot of money or even get something I really liked because then I would feel a desire to keep them clean, defeating the whole purpose. Back then Darren and I lived in Darren's parents basement suite and we loved to go to garage sales as we were poor. When I say poor I mean that we did not own a house or have a lot to our names, but we had everything that we needed - we were happy! One Saturday while we were out with our little 1 year old, in our little Honda Civic, with my little pregnant belly (Bergen) we can across some little green boots. They were the smallest rubber boots that I had ever seen, they fit Noelle perfectly and they cost 25 cents. Sold! Those little green boots have been through Noelle, Bergen, Emma and Tate and now it is Nya's turn. When I look back on the early days of our married life I am filled with absolute joy as I remember those simplistic times - the fresh new beginning of a family. I would not trade those poor, apartment living days for anything. Now that we have a house and the children and everything else we imagined for ourselves (not only material) I am not a happier person because of it. Grateful, yes, very. Happier - no. I am in the place that I imagined myself being, almost exactly, over a decade ago. Only now that I am here can I look back and see what we had - everything and nothing all at the same time. I loved being poor, but it's hard to be poor and feed five kids so I also love having everything that we need and most things we want. We have been so blessed, so blessed. With the children in particular. Five gorgeous, amazing kids, healthy and strong and we have been blessed with the means to provide, always, for them. Those little green boots will forever be a tangible reminder of a life that seems almost a lifetime ago, of a simpler time. They will help me remember that sometimes when you have nothing, if you look around you will see that you actually have everything, everything that is important. They will symbolize my dreams of what was ahead of us as we planned out our lives together and what is now behind me, sweet memories to cherish. When I am old and grey and I look back upon my life I will always remember my little babies in those little green boots and smile! They are truly the best 25 cents that I ever spent.

Socks Aren't Just For Your Feet

It was Emma's 7th birthday yesterday. Noelle and I made her a pair of sock monkey's. Emma had been admiring Noelle's sock monkey that she made with a pair of socks and instructions that she received for her birthday back in January from a friend. They are the cutest things! Emma loves them and Noelle gave her sister something homemade and heart felt!

Bathroom Re-do

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

When we moved into this house I thought that it was very nice, but it was never really mine. Slowly, room by room, we are making it ours. In the process of doing the boys room (which is soon to be completed) I got inspired and decided to re-do the kids bathroom. Warning: For those color loving friends of mine out there you will probably not like it very much, but I really do like the way it turned out. I love all white bathrooms, but I have never been brave enough to do it, thinking that it would be too boring. Changing the cupboards and the counter was not an option right now, so we just worked with what we had and some day we will change those things, but for now and especially since it is the kids bathroom, this will do. We have a couple of little things left to do like changing the light fixture and figuring out how to finish the mirror frame that Darren made for the mirror that was already there. I had an idea but after it was made I liked the way it looked so much that I think I changed my mind about what I was going to do. Now I think I will leave it natural and just protect it somehow, or I will end up finishing it and spray the picture frames a dark color, I don't know, we'll see. It was a cheap, fast fix up but for a can of paint, $20 dollars in wood and trim, a few hours and a willing husband I think it turned out pretty good.



Language Lessons From The Sanguines Among Us

People who say funner don't care that it's not a word!

Wheat Grass Juice

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

We received a wheat grass juicer for Christmas this year from Darren's parents and I think it is the greatest thing! The kids and I get to grow the grass in a tray in the house (great school project). It only takes about 10 days - you can almost watch it grow and it is the most amazing green color (I love green). The kids were so excited to harvest and juice the first batch and less excited about tasting it. If you have never tasted it, it is not something that can be described. It has the strongest flavor, so needless to say although all the kids tried it, they did not ask for seconds. But since it has such good nutritional benefits and the kids really do like to grow, harvest and juice it, we will do it again. Next time though, I will hide it in a smoothie!
The funniest thing was having the young women over for an activity and getting them to try it! They were even more entertaining to watch than the kids! Thanks for being such great sports girls!

Her Happy Place!

Nya LOVES the piano! If I would let her stay there all day and play, she would! She gets very offended if you take her away (I can't sit there all day and I don't want her to fall) and if anyone else is playing she will climb up unto your lap and take right over. She just loves the piano. I can't wait to see what happens as she gets older.

Give Me A Simple Life

Saturday, April 3, 2010

(picture taken by my little photographer Noelle)

I really related to Julie Beck's comments today in the saturday morning session of conference. I have been thinking about those things a lot lately. I want a simple life. I like peace and quiet. I want to feel appreciated. Sometimes I wonder and think about ways to make my life more simple. But then I remember-

I chose to have 5 children. Children who laugh and cry and fight and run around the house.
Children who are masters at making a mess and claiming that they didn't do it. Children who produce more dirty dishes and soiled laundry than could ever be done in a day. Children who play the piano and sing songs..... loudly. Children who want to be inside when I want them outside and outside when I want them inside. Children who can whip up a wild tsunami in the bathtub. Children who wake me up too early and sometimes keep me up too late. I have children who have strong personalities. I did not choose a simple life, but I would not change it.

I chose to be a wife and a stay at home mom during a time in our world where very few consider this position to be of the utmost importance to, not only the future of my family but the future of our world. Do I always even see the importance of this role? On a global level, yes, and if anyone were to ask me what I thought the most important thing I could be doing is, I would of course, without fail answer, "mothering my children". But do I really always feel this in my heart? Would I question my worth if I did? Would I question if I am doing enough? Making a big enough difference? I did not choose a simple life, but I would not change it.

I chose to be a wife to a husband and have a large family with him. I am very mindful of the little children as they demand my attention, but as my husband does not do this in the same way the children do, I can sometimes be neglectful of that sacred and vital relationship. A relationship I cherish- in thought but not always in deed. It takes time and energy and work and sometimes sacrifice to keep a marriage strong and healthy. When the world can degrade marriage and the family is being pulled apart, reverence and respect for marriage must be defended and protected at all costs. I did not chose an easy life, but I would not change it.

I chose to be a member of the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints and there are those who do not understand or agree with my beliefs, there are times when I must take a stand and times when I must step out altogether and there are even times when people will accuse me of not being a Christian at all. I do not understand how they could think this aside from being sadly misinformed. But it hurts and yet I will not ever deny what I believe nor will I impose myself on others. My husband and I are busy with church responsibilities and activities which like everything else take time and effort. To assist in the Lord's work is a privilege but also another responsibility. I did not chose an easy life, but I would not change it.

I chose to homeschool my children- 5 very different children with different needs and personalities. I wonder if I am doing enough or if I can really teach them what they need to know or at least what others tell me they need to know. I am with them all day and rarely get any down time until they are all nestled in bed for the night and then I roll into bed and wonder if they learned anything today, if they felt enough love and how tomorrow will go and yet my children are with ME, everyday, where I feel they are suppose to be, being taught the things they will need to have success in this life and also in the life to come. With this knowledge comes confidence and peace and assurance that we will make it through and we are on the right path. I did not chose an easy life, but I would not change it.

As a family we chose to be pet owners, home owners, business owners and gardeners. Each of these things requires time and planning and elbow grease. Would I really feel fulfilled with a life of ease? I know for myself that the answer is no. There is great satisfaction in accomplishing something, something hard. Seeing the results of a garden planted that supplies food and beauty, watching my children care for Heavenly Father's creatures and learning so much in the process, making a house a home and a safe haven for our family and gaining the courage that is needed and the faith that is strengthened by owning our own business. I did not choose an easy life, but I would not change it.

I chose to come to earth and gain a body and go through trials and pain so that I could learn what I need to know to become like my Heavenly Father. I knew that this would not be easy, how could it be? To become like God! This alone is my goal, the whole purpose of everything else I do. This could never have been an easy task, what of worth could possibly be gained from a life of leisure and ease? I did not choose an easy life, but I would not change it.

So when I feel burdened and weighed down with all the challenges and responsibilities that I have, when my children are fighting, when my marriage is not where I want it to be, when I am tired I need to remember that this is the life I chose. This is not about who is busier than who, because everyone is busy doing something. The important thing is what we are busy doing. Is what I am busy doing going to get me where I want to be? That is the question we must ask ourselves. My answer to that question is in heaven with my family, there will be my reward, the peace I seek, the quiet I so rarely enjoy here in this noisy world. Day by day, choice by choice I am where I chose to be but also where I am suppose to be. I do not have the easy life that at moments I wish I did. What can I do? What can I eliminate? It is not a matter of my calendar being too full or biting off more than I can chew, it is simply that I have things I need to learn, I have great potential to achieve and with that comes a life filled with teaching opportunities - to be kinder, to be more patient, to be more long suffering, to be more giving. I did not chose an easy life, and I WOULD NOT change it.